In one of my previous post I discussed my experiences with Traction Alopecia and I mentioned that I never felt comfortable going into hair salons. To this day I still feel uncomfortable with the idea of stepping into one for the simple fact that the level of ignorance is at an all time high in this era. What I mean by this is we are in an era of social media and technology and people won’t hesitate to make you the butt of their joke. I always practice the mantra of never caring what people think about you but who really wants to be humiliated about something it took them so long to get over. I envision myself fidgeting in my seat and feeling the way I felt so long ago, wondering what people are thinking and who’s putting me on Snapchat or Instagram. The last time I sat in a salon chair to get my hair done this woman stared at me for the longest with no remorse and I could read her face. She was thinking to herself what was wrong with me and why so much of my hair was gone. To be honest, there’s just some things we never recover from and although I can share my story and not give a rat’s behind about what anybody thinks, it will take me a little longer to be able to deal with some things. The hair salon is ruined for me right now, there will be times when I want to treat myself and then I think about that day and start feeling self conscious. I am not at the point in my life where I feel ready to expose myself to that again. One day I will able to walk into a salon and feel like the most confident woman in the world, but now I am still building myself up and growing. Everything takes time. We all fear something at the end of the day but we work to overcome that fear. We are all learning to love ourselves a little more each day.
When people go through something rough in life, they say, ‘I’m taking it one day at a time.’ Yes, so is everybody. Because that’s how time works. – Hannibal Buress
Be Blessed and Stay Humble.