“Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy.” – Unknown
This summer has been an interesting one to say the least. It has been filled with ups, downs, and everything in between. As it comes to an end I sit back and reflect on my mindset at the beginning. A lot of growth has taken place and for that I am proud. After getting out of an almost two and a half year relationship and dealing with the stress of my finances for this study abroad program, I can really say it has made me stronger. I realized a lot in such a short time but most importantly I learned that my happiness should come before anything else.
It’s important to sometimes live in the moment and enjoy what life has to offer. Although I couldn’t travel as much as I would have liked, this summer has been filled with joyous moments and thrills. I spent time with loved ones, and learned how to let go of people and situations. I learned how to be content with being alone and realized that I need to find myself before I make plans to find someone else. As the summer winds down my mind places more emphasis on self-love and happiness. I’ve been contemplating abstinence for some time now and today I wholeheartedly made the decision to follow through with it. It’s not because I have several sexual partners or anything of that nature but it’s because I love myself enough to wait and I feel a guy should too. I’m only getting older and sex is an intimate act that shouldn’t be committed with just anyone. To each it’s own, it’s all about preference but I would prefer for someone to love me for me, not for what I can do for them. Whether I abstain until marriage or until I find someone worth laying down with I’m content with the decision I’ve made.
Your body is a temple and should be treated as such. Sex is an important aspect of a relationship but it’s not everything. You can’t be out here giving samples to people who taste it and walk away because it was free. When you receive a sample from those Chinese places in the mall you grab it and keep walking, you knew you didn’t have intentions on buying but you took it anyway because it was there. Sometimes you stand around lingering to make them think you’re contemplating on getting something and other times you quickly move on.
I’ve realized that it’s okay to make mistakes as long as you don’t make the same mistake twice. This summer has been confusing, a change, a whirlwind. At times I found myself deep inside myself, scared, making decisions I wouldn’t usually make, setting myself up for potential hurt. My education, emotions, mind, feelings, whole being were on the line. I found myself at my downfall and on the verge of giving up and letting whatever be, be. We all have or will experience something like this, I was depressed and stressed for a large part of the summer until I asked myself why.
All in all we have the power to change the way we think and how we let things affect us. I made the decision to change my mindset and chose to be happy. I’m at a place in life where I’m building myself up and doing things for me. Growth sometimes comes unexpectedly and I have grown mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. This summer has been the best and worst at the same time but through it all I chose to smile and enjoy myself. Now I’m getting ready to leave for Rome in less than 3 weeks and although I could stress myself out about the things I still need I’m choosing to place my faith in God with the mindset that it will all work itself out. I stopped taking a backseat view on my life and grabbed the wheel and it feels amazing. So long summer 2k15 it was a good one!
Growth will take place of your hardships if you let it. It’s a great feeling when you become at peace with yourself. Recognize your problem areas and work towards improvement. Become nothing but better.
Thanks for reading! Be Blessed & Stay Humble 🙂
More photos from my summer posted on IG: breyannna_